When i read Psalms 139 there are so many feelings and thoughts that come to me.
If i read it from the perspective of how awesome God is, and how loved and cared for and unique and special i am, then this Psalm is nothing but a comfort and an encouragement! He knows me. He sees me. He's in love with me. He created me. He planned things for me. I am not an accident. I am not a cosmic whim, or a result of some sort of random and bizarre process. I am not here without reason or purpose. I have been fearfully and wonderfully made. Someone took the time, care and love to think me up, design me, form me, spent time thinking of what was i going to look like, what my personality and character were going to be like, what things i would like, enjoy, thrive on, and put in me a void that only could be filled by encountering Him during my time here on earth and get to know the one who made me! My creator. Nothing about me is an accident, He didn't make a mistake, or overlooked anything about me. No, no mistakes at all. The world might think there's things wrong with me, or you, and they might look at you and say you are a freak, an accident, weird, odd, ugly, dumb, and many other derogatory terms, but you can rest assured, those are all lies coming from our enemy, who hates God's creation and will do anything within his limited power to take God's masterpieces down tot he dark pit with him.
So, when reading this Psalm, i can think of those things and be so encouraged.
But there's another way to think about it when i read it, specially some parts that speak to the beauty of God being sovereign and all knowing and all present.
And this is what i am talking about. Right away David says "Oh God, you have searched me and known me". This right here is both an awesome and scary thought. And what comes next makes it even more serious. Not only God has searched me, dug deep through my everything, and known me, but he keeps going saying "...you perceive my thoughts from afar...". This makes my heart tremble in a humble way. Whatever comes and is on my mind at any given time, He knows!!! So, when i think that whatever i am thinking is harmless because no one can know and see, i am very mistaken. The very person we should be afraid of knowing our thoughts knows them all. When you're lusting after something, whether a person or things, when you are bitter and have hating thoughts towards someone, when you lied and know you did, when you have evil intentions, and scheme cheating and deceiving things, God sees it all! There's nothing hidden from Him. Crazy! So, how is our thought life? How are our souls?
Keeps going..."You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.4 Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely."